why i cant get over her and hurt myself? because she was my first love and in my eyes, she cheated on me. she saw another man while she was with me. thats why i cant get over that fact. that is why i keep hurting myself everytime i hear his name. everytime i hear her name.

im sorry to everyone that cares. i really am. but the facts are still there and i cant change it. all i have to do is get over my first love ... that cheated on me. my first love. my first love that i loved and still loving, i love her to bits. i really do. even though the facts are there ... i still do. she makes me whole. she makes me smile. she makes me laugh. she fills every empty holes in me. she completes me.

rick.